ozmissage | Real Life is Lame, Can We Just Talk About Icons Instead?

I upgraded to a paid account and then spent an insane amount of time collecting icons last night. The result is I now have seventy-five billion icons saved. I thought for sure fandom would fail me in my search for a Doctor/River Song icon because I’m pretty sure that I’m one of like five people who actually ships them, but I managed to find several without having to do much searching.

Dollhouse fandom on the other hand failed me pretty epically. Um, hi where are all of the Topher icons hiding? I know fans of the show for the most part consider him the devil himself, but those of us who like our geniuses snarky and slightly amoral need icons too. I finally found a couple that I liked after a good hour of surfing through dozens of Echo and Ballard icons, but come on fandom, where is the Topher love?

Actually while we’re on the subject of Dollhouse and Topher, why in the name of all that is good and Whedony are there so many people shipping Topher/Saunders? Admittedly, I’ve been largely watching the show in my own private bubble, but I feel as if I’m missing something. It must be coming from that one scene in the finale, but I didn’t read that as Topher has a secret crush on her. I read that as a manifestation of the guilt over what he has done to her and the others (and what he is still doing to them everyday.)

I mean there’s nothing wrong with shipping Topher/Saunders, it’s just personally I don’t see where it’s coming from. I don’t actually ship Topher with anyone, but I would love to see a well thought out, intricate fic detailing the friendship between Adelle/Topher because that’s my absolute favorite relationship on the show. I’m not sure what that says about me as a person.

Moving on, I have not forgotten about my promise of Sayid het. It is coming, but I have unfortunately been sidelined by a case of the dreaded Blahs. I just haven’t been in the writing mood the past couple of days. I think seeing all of these school supplies in the stores is getting me down. I love buying binders and paper clips and new folders, but for the first time ever…I have no reason to.

And then it hits me that I’m never going to school again which is kind of terrifying because I’m good at school (well, not math, but who needs that anyway?) I have yet to see any proof that I’m good at anything else. Every time I pass a shelf of notebook paper it’s like a reminder that "Hey, you know you’re a college graduate, missy, why are you not successful and awesome yet?" And then I want to go silently weep into a stack of multi-colored post-it notes.

Sigh. Um, so this post took a turn down a very depressing alley…

Anyway, hopefully my bad mood will pass and I can get back to making Sayid fall in love with all of the Lost ladies. I watched “Enter 77” under the guise of research yesterday and was reduced to a giggling mess when I heard Sayid tell Kate to, “get some rope.” Which is exactly what Sawyer says to Juliet at the end of “Some Like it Hoth”. See, this is why it pays to rewatch Lost. And as much as I love Sawyer, the prospect of Sayid + Rope is much more appealing to me. Mmm, Sayid…

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I think seeing all of these school supplies in the stores is getting me down. I love buying binders and paper clips and new folders, but for the first time ever…I have no reason to.

And then it hits me that I’m never going to school again which is kind of terrifying because I’m good at school (well, not math, but who needs that anyway?)

SECONDED <33

And I'm a year out so it's even sillier for me to look longingly at the rows of looseleaf. I'm more of a notebook girl anyway.

I was rewatching the Lost pilot the other day and when Kate is sewing up Jack she tells him "I might throw up on you." Naturally I laughed because "reuse of lines much, J.J.? Thanks, though, Kirk/Bones needed that."

Heh. JJ and co. love their repetition.

And I'm a big fan of notebooks too. Most of my fics begin life in a good old fashioned notebook. ;)

I know what you mean about school supplies. Once I took a 4 year break from school in between degrees, and back to school time was torture. There is nothing like buying a new notebook, and opening it to the first page and taking very neat notes, if only for that day.

Sayid + rope = ladies is intriguing. It me think of when Rousseau tied him up.

It must have been hard to go back after that much time. I've only been out for a few months and as much as I miss it, I can't really imagine going back.

I love that episode. I always secretly hoped the show might throw us a little Danielle/Sayid. :)

Sayid + rope > Sawyer + rope any day, much as it pains me to choose. Only theoretically, of course. Because if I actually chose Sayid I'd probably die within two episodes. ;)

I loooove notebook paper. I start every school year with these wonderful shiny intentions and equally shiny binders and pens and before I know it I want to chuck it all in the wastebin. But it's nice for a little while. And it evokes nostalgia like nothing else!

Poor Sayid, he does have a hard time keeping his ladies alive. But man, it would almost be worth getting eaten by a polar bear two episodes later. Almost. ;)

I had a full-blown panic attack -- and it's pretty much one of the only times -- when I realized I was truly, completely done with school (I worked for my university throughout most of my years there, and for about six months after I graduated).

So I totally feel you -- it's like you get into the academic groove and after four (or however many) years you actually get good at it, and then you're pretty much shoved out the door and forced to completely recalibrate your life and how you see yourself. Actually, I think that was the hardest part for me -- going from, "Oh, I'm a student" to "Oh, I'm a recent graduate and woefully underemployed". (Although now that my quote-unquote professional career's underway, I do get a little swell of pride every time I get to tell people what I do.) And you will find something else, absolutely -- hang in there! :D

Thank you so much for the pep talk, I definitely needed it. :)

Logically, I know that I'm going to get used to not being a student and I will figure out what I want to do next (and get an opportunity to do it), it's just sometimes it feels like there's no light at the end of the tunnel...there's just more tunnel and maybe a wall.

So it's nice to hear that someone else has been there and made it through the awkward transition period. It gives me hope. :)

*uses pretty Daniel icon by way of thanks*

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